no drama lol

so i can't really post anything if there's no drama in a drama queen's diary right? But ya know what? the peacefulness that has settled is quite nice...we'll see how long it lasts haha

nothing surprises me anymore

You can't trust anyone in life they say...it's true...problem is that we inherently WANT to trust in people so we learn the hard way over and over again that...nothing's changed..and yes..they do all talk behind your back...and sometimes you meet psychos that you really thought you could trust like..your best friend for 8 years..and even they..turn and talk behind your back...my god even your mom talks behind your back...if people could just stop doing that and really say what they meant to each other without fearing confrontation...things would be so different.

sad but true

someone in New York Magazine wrote this and I reread it and always think how true it is.

"..Kids today. They have no sense of shame. They have no sense of privacy. They are show-offs, fame whores, pornographic little loons who post their diaries, their phone numbers, their stupid poetry-for God's sake, their dirty photos!-online. They have virtual friends instead of real ones. They talk in illiterate instant messages. They are interested only in attention-and yet they have zero attention span, flitting like hummingbirds from one virtual stage to another.."

in the same article a young person is quoted as saying..." Without any meaningful standard by which to measure our worth, we turn to the public eye for affirmation.."
all of these words really make me scared for how things are gonna turn out for humanity.

metamorphosis

I've spent so much time building a coccoon that i've forgotten I was supposed to emerge with wings.

do brunettes have more fun than redheads?

Recently i was viewing some photos of myself and looking at my candy coloured hair and i said..."geez..isn't that a little juvenile looking Steph?" I think i was right..upon further examination I almost started to think that i looked like a cartoon character..or was getting close to Mimi from Drew Carey..there's a fine line i'm walking between being young and being a lady...and maybe this red hair is starting to cross that line. But it's been my signature for 10 years, so letting it go feels like i'm disappointing my fanclub (lol)..Red looks great on older women though right? i mean look at Pat Field!..and Vivienne Westwood!..ok..i realize i don't have their cult status..but i can be fabulous..maybe..not..we'll try the mahogany for now and see how i feel next week.