something i think about in the middle of the night when i can't sleep.

There is something that is a recurring thought i've had for quite some time that creeps into my head usually at about 4am. It's kind of complicated to explain but I'll try. It's the fact that I often wonder.....in slaughterhouses or the meat industry, factories, farms etc all over the country and world, there is someone or several people who have the unlikely job of actually having to KILL the animals right?....Which leads me into thinking, who are these people? What type of person is cut out for making their living this way? Does it bother them? Do they block it out? Is there a "profile" ya know, FBI type stereotype person who finds their way to this position? are they predominantly male? or are there female chicken-head-cutters? I'd like to see some unbiased (un-PETA-freak) camera interviews about who these people are and what are their lives are like? Do they have children? Do they TELL the children what they do for a living? and if they make it sound all nice for the kids like.."oh daddy works at the piggie factory"..then..aren't they just really covering up the fact that it truely IS bothersome to them? So why do they do it?

where it all began..

I remember going into the city with a few high school friends back in the day, say I was about 17 years old and eager to see "Soho" (yes we were from Nassau County so this was like the holy grail of where fashion came from to me lol) I remember the cobblestones under my shoes and stumbling and thinking oh no the people in those shops are looking out at me going "here come the bridge and tunnelers!"..because i was..and they WERE haha..this is so long ago that I barely can remember anything except the one store that changed my whole outlook on life..I thought I wasn't allowed into couture label stores and that only rich people and actresses would be allowed past their buzzered doors..I was shocked when this nice old black gentlemen in a uniform buzzed me into Comme des Garcons..I really thought he was making an exception and that i would be chased out of there..but I wandered awe-struck thru the store touching the clothes on those really minimilist silver rolling racks..looking at the price tags and feeling like I had been accidentally let inside the Vatican..it was at this moment that I told myself..I belong here..i know it..and vowed to come back looking fiercer than ever!..and the rest as you know darlings...is history : )

sickens me

while i was watching the Kardashians tonight (which i never normally do because it's so scripted and ridiculous) there was a scene where one of the girls and her bf were in the kitchen in front of the whole family kissing and they family was all like "get a room!" so they kinda kept on doing it until finally the BF had the kardasian lifted up onto the counter simulating sex .....i wouldn't have had a problem with this normally except for that fact that they focused in on Bruce Jenner for a sec on camera and his huge boner sticking up thru his sweatpants (yes they showed it) while he's saying in reponse  to everyone noticing it "well! this is the best sex I'VE seen in a long time!"....but like..that's his STEPDAUGHTER??? does anyone see anything gross about airing something like this besides me???  this is what our children are watching?????

so that lasted long huh? lol

yeah..well..i think we knew i couldn't go everyday. i've been uninspired lately for some reason..hmm

a little legging goes a long way : )

the belt was onsale lol 2 for $15 (although i don't know how many harness style belts a girl really does need? found that 2 fer a LITTLE weird)These awesome leggings were the real piece de resistance in this ensemble and they were 3 for $10! shoes are from cutseygirl.com

omg she's alive and still stylish! lol

I waited a month for this sweater from Japan and you can't even see it in the photo! lollegwarmers make all the difference this winter

apology

I am very sorry that there's been no outfits for your inspiration lately. I was away on an extended "vacation" for a while and unable to update. more on the way soon now that i'm back in normal mode : )